mother's day song

we don't ever fight

Sugar Bug Song

Sweet Memory Made

Today I had an awesome opportunity. I was able to attend a Mother's Day luncheon that was put on by Claire's preschool teachers and all the kids. Very rarely do I get to spend time alone with Claire. Claire and I are a lot alike and we tend to fight like cat's and dog's a lot of the time. We have been through a lot together and today was a huge reminder to me of how much I love my little girl. I was so proud of her as she told me all about her friends at school and then sang with all of her classmates. She is such a special little girl. She is so smart and I am often very suprised at the things that come out of her mouth. She is so independent which I love and hate all at the same time. I was so grateful for this day because she and I have really been struggling lately. I couldn't help but be emotional when she sang her mother's day song. She is so beautiful. I love my little Claire Bear!<

Thank Goodness it's Thursday!

So the day has just begun and already it's panning out to be a hard one. Does any of this matter? NOOO, because tonight is Grey's Anatomy night and we are going to have treats and we are going to have FUN! The only way it could be better is if Grey's Anatomy was on Friday so I could have my husband home for the weekend. I have a hard time when he is gone. Things have been better though. I haven't felt like throwing myself under a bus lately and so I think perhaps my hormones are finally all leveled out and my new medication is taking effect. I am a crazy one but admit it, that's why a lot of you love me! I had a long talk with a friend back home yesterday and man I want to make another visit to Utah but the money is just not there. Hopefully by August there will be some sort of miracle and I can go. I am starting to think we should be playing the AZ lottery, it's up to like 20 million right now. Do you know how many groceries and diapers I could buy with 20 million dollars????

Finally!

I have been waiting patiently for my hair to grow and finally I am seeing some results! I know that sounds like a really stupid thing to blog about but anything that makes me happy lately is a huge deal!
I have been so down! I just couldn't get it together. I couldn't get a handle on my house, I couldn't get a handle on my kids and I couldn't stop crying! The past two days have been much better. I don't know why but for some reason I have felt like getting up and doing my hair and making my bed and I have felt great! Last night I had a little set back but this morning I was back to being okay. I am so glad, I could not have continued the way I was going. I have decided not to do daycare this summer. It was hard because I was going to watch a very good friends kids but I just think it would be better for me if I focused on my kids alone. Claire is having a hard time and she needs my attention. So we are going to continue to be very poor and we may have to cancel our summer plans but at least we will all be together!

Game Night

Tonight Matt and I had a friend and her date over to the house to play games and hang out and it was a lot of fun! We laughed really hard and it felt great. I haven't laughed like that in months.