Done

I wish there were a way to scream through the computer screen because that is the sound you would be hearing from me right now. I am done. I am done with life, I am so done. I am done with family, I am done with this house, our bills, our life. I want to pack up this family and move far away where we know no one and just exist, not live. Ivan turns 4 today and we had to call our families to remind them. We were un-invited to a lake powell trip that we were supposed to leave for tomorrow because Claire has mono. This is the last straw. I honestly (and this sounds harsh) feel like walking upstairs, climbing out the window and jumping. This trip was the one thing that was going to save us. It was going to renew everything and now that's gone. I think I am actually going crazy. I am shaking because I am so angry. I don't think I have ever been this angry. This is it for me, I am done.