Trying to Prepare

I just don't know what to do to start preparing for the upcoming weeks. My desire is simply to sit on the couch and stare into space. I am so used to being in control and this situation is completely out of my control. I decided that today I needed a project to keep me busy and one that will make me feel more prepared and so I am headed to the fabric store to buy the supplies necessary to recover the infant car seat that we have. I have never tried this but a friend of mine knows what she is doing and if I get stuck or desperate I can call her. I also need to buy a few preemie clothes but I figure I can send Matt to the store after she is born to get something to bring her home in. I just keep focusing on bringing her home because the alternative is unthinkable right now. So today I am going to get the car seat done and re-arrange our room so that the portable crib will fit next to my side of the bed. Perhaps then I will feel more in control and more prepared.