Full-Time

Today was supposed to be Matt's first day returning to work full-time but because of various reasons he was not able to go. This means that tomorrow he starts back full-time and tonight I'm not anymore ready than I was last night. I am thankful that he is well enough t go back to work but I am not read to have him leave me for ten hours a day. We have been through so much over the last 4 months and just watching him go makes me nervous. I will not be alone however, my best-friend/Sis has been here with her kids keeping me company and I am so thankful for her. She has been a huge strength through all of this all the while dealing with her own issues. Things have been good lately but a little hard. I have days when I just can't make myself get going, days when I just don't want to do anything. These days are discouraging days. It's hard for me to keep in mind that everyday won't be this way but it sure feels like that sometimes. I've decided that I am going to make a list of things to do everyday, housework, cooking, activities with children that will keep my days full. All the while I will be praying that Matt gets back and forth from work safely. His track record isn't so great, lol. I am so thankful for my husband, he makes me happy.