I have been making changes in my life. They are much needed changes but they are requiring me to re-evaluate myself and grow out of my comfort zone. I ended a friendship that has been close to the center of my world for 11 years. I had to end it. It was a negative and draining friendship in the end.
It didn't start that way. I thought it was the best friendship I had ever had. This person was my person. I don't miss this person, I miss who this person was. This person was the one person besides my husband that I called if ANYTHING went wrong and so now if something goes awry or something big happens I pause for a moment because I don't have my person to call. So I want to leave and find a place that does not feel unfamiliar because of what I have had to let go. The problem is that I can travel from place to place and it will not fix what I am feeling. It must come from within. I must become "my person".