Today Matt's family had to leave. Originally they were going to stay a little longer but Matt's dad is having his knee replaced on January 6th. It was so hard to say goodbye. Every time someone comes we are absolutely thrilled but when they leave there is something inside me that wants to leave with them. If only we could lock the doors and just go back to our old life. I wish there was a way to merge the two existences together. Paul gave Matt a very good blessing last night which helped us to understand that we need to be patient in order to see the reasons we are here. I just hate the ache that comes with watching them go. I wanted to chase the car but instead I cried.