Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Can't Stop Crying

Oh my gosh, today is such a sucky day! I have been more hormonal with this baby than I was with the last two and I hate it. I was watching the bachelor last night and I got so mad that I was swearing at the TV and then just wanted to cry. Give me a break! Today I was listening to some music and I just started thinking of my friend Mandy at home and all I can do is cry. I am going home to visit and I almost don't want to. I am so afraid of having to come back here. I like it here but we were so happy in Tooele. I love all of my friends and can't wait to see them but it's going to be so hard to say goodbye again, especially to Mandy (no offense to anyone else, it will be hard for everyone). Mandy and I have been through so much and I just miss having her show up at my door with Arby's sandwiches. I miss staying up late with her and laughing at things that everyone else thinks are stupid. I miss that she is the one person that knows how dorky I am but loves me for it anyway. I just miss everyone and especially her. I am making friends here and I know in the end I will feel like that about them but Mandy and I were a team for 4 years through such good times and such bad times. I wish I could rewind things and just stay in Tooele. I know we're supposed to be here and I have met some of the most incredible people but my heart breaks for home.


Stephanie said...

I can't imagine what you are going thru, I don't think I would be able to make such a sacrifice and move to another state. I know the Lord has your family in arizona for a reason, you might not know why but it will all be worth it. Hope you are having a good day, there should be a delivery at your house today. (if not call me) Take care and see you sooner then we both think.

Lynnette said...

Hang in there sweetie. Yup, it's rough in the beginning...but it does get better. Easy words to say but I do know how you feel.

Love ya! Nett

The Warner Corner said...

I'm sooo offended!! I'm soooo kidding. I know EXACTLY how you feel. I felt the same way when I moved to Utah. I left everyone behind. I left the bestest friend a girl could have and so I know what you are going through. It will be good to come home and see some familiar faces. And yes, it will be hard to say goodbye again. But that's ok...it's wonderful to have so many people to care about and who care about you. I'm excited to see you guys. Hang in there!