Sunday, October 9, 2011
This weekend has been a little hard for me emotionally. I have been aching for home, wherever that may be. Tonight I went to work in the kids room and washed all their sheets and made their beds and put their names above their beds. I have decided that instead of praying for a home of our own I will pray that living here with my in-laws will feel more like home. We are not going to be in a position anytime soon to be on our own so I have to feel like the spaces we have are our own. I also got some of my scrapbooking stuff out of storage so that I can go to work on our family books. Matt has tomorrow and Tuesday off of work and I am so glad to have the time with him. Tomorrow we get to go to lunch with my cousin who is in town. I haven't seen her in more than 15 years and I am very excited to see her.
All in all it was a trying weekend but I handled it better than weekends like it before. I am hoping that with time it will get easier and easier to adapt. I don't know why I expected things to be immediately better but it's like Matt says, it took us three years to get into this mess, it's going to take at least that long to rebuild and get better. I just need to give myself time.