Monday, November 5, 2012
The kids seem to be doing better in a lot of ways and we have only had a few setbacks. I think the more time we have together as a normal functioning family the better. I know we could benefit exponentially from counseling but I am not sure that it is going to happen. There are so many financial limitations that make it nearly impossible. I do think that time is healing us though. The kids have been showing signs of recovery that I thought would never come. Nora is finally settling into school and we no longer drag her crying to kindergarten anymore. I think she is finding a safe place in this world again. She is seeing that Dad is doing better and that Mom is not going to disappear again. Ivan and Claire are doing well in school. They are difficult as ever but I just keep reminding myself that it will be a great thing when they are older. If they keep up the attitudes that they display here at home they will go far in this impossible world. I am so grateful that our little family seems to be back on track. Please Lord no more strokes. I pray that Matt will continue to get better and better. According to every doctor that we have seen Matt should not be doing as well as he is. According to the doctors he should not even be back to work until a year from now. He should still need therapy and recovery time at home but he is blowing those statistics out of the water. He is full functioning and aside from a few symptoms here and there he is progressing at an incredible rate. He is back to full time work and started that in August, only 5 months after a massive hemorrhage and debilitating stroke. I am so proud of him! I am so blessed to still have him. I am so grateful to the Lord for leaving him here with us. I don't know what we would have done without him. We would not have come back from his death. He is meant for great things here on earth. I hope that I can compliment his goodness with even a minuscule amount of grace. We are a long way from recovered but we have started that journey and I am so thankful for that!