Friday, March 27, 2009
What a wonderful visual of how I am feeling right now. There is no rhym or reason, there is no explanation...I am just confused, mixed up and blue. I am tired of being tired. It is hard for me to accept that most days I won't feel well. I am tired of trying fun things with my kids on the days that I do feel well only to have them tell me it's no fun and they want to go home. I am tired of imagining another child in our home but being afraid to concieve again for fear of miscarriage. I know I have it easy in that part and that I shouldn't worry but it haunts me some days. I am tired of worrying about whether or not I am a good friend. I am tired of scheduling my life around others feelings and leaving mine on the back burner to simmer into smoke. I am just so tired of being so tired.