Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Man we are in the hardest spot right now. We are stuck between a rock, a hard place and what feels like a garbage compactor on top. There is just too much month and not enough money. What is more frustrating is that we are not buying ANY extra's. We are living off of our food storage that we bought at the beginning of the year to avoid the expense of groceries. We are not going to movies or dinner etc. We have even stopped renting movies from the redbox and that was only one dollar! The decision to come to AZ was not made on a whim. Matt and I fasted and prayed and then fasted and prayed again and the answer was clear. It was not easy by all means but it was clear. We were to leave Utah and come here. We miss home so much. We miss being so close to Matt's Dad and being able to go to him for advice whenever we needed. We have looked for every solution you could imagine and come up empty handed. This is where we have decided that Faith is the only thing that will get us through. Matt says that he has a feeling that things are going to be okay. I am so grateful that he has that feeling because I don't have the ability to feel much anymore. I will just have to lean on his faith for now until I can gain my own. Please God, grant us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change and the courage to change the things that we can.