Thursday, July 16, 2009

Change is Good...


I love my new hair color! I forgot how much a new hair color can boost your spirits. It has been a very trying day. I have been trying desperately to clean the house and the mess just seems to be moving. One of my good friends gave birth last night to a baby girl and Matt's cousin just found out she is having her second set of twins. I am so happy for them but for some reason I am anxious. I think I just wish I was that far along in this pregnancy so that I could have a little peace of mind. It may also be that I would have been that far along with the baby I lost in March and I still think about it. I still think about the last two that I lost very much. I feel like I have created a distance between me and this pregnancy. I have not allowed myself to be excited and that's really hard. Hopefully on Monday when I see the heartbeat things will change a little, we will just see. For now I am very on edge but craving a hamburger and Oreo's, so I know that I'm still prego!

5 comments:

Lynda said...

You are pregnant my friend!! I'm so excited for you!! You look beautiful and I think this blanket making process you are doing is just great! I'm so so so proud of you!!

The Warner Corner said...

LOVE the new hair!! You are so pretty. I hope all goes well on Monday. Love you!

Emily said...

Love the new hair! I'm glad things are going good with your pregnancy. Good luck!

Chad~Nicole said...

It's amazing what a "good hair day" can do for a gal. Looks good.

Stephanie said...

Love the new hair color, maybe that's what I need also. Take care, things can only go up from here.